08 November 2009

Everything That I Am

At the beginning of last week, on November the second, this little blog of mine turned six months old. Hurrah, hurrah! I am still learning about what inspires me to write, I am developing my photographic habits, and I am finding my style by trial and error - but this corner, right here, of the vast, astounding, and dazzling internet is all mine, no matter what, and I love it dearly for everything that it is!

Thank you, friends, for being here for the ride! Already I have found lovely souls out there in Blogland who inspire me to no end and whose acquaintance I treasure greatly. Hugs to you out there. What is so delightful about this journey is knowing that there are so many more friends to meet, paintings to paint and crafts to make, things to learn and ideas to write about! I can't wait to discover them.

I have been feeling for some time that I need to properly introduce myself. I have, however, been putting it off. I have so many worries - will you like the 'real' me? Will it shatter the magic that I feel here? Will I be reduced to an ordinary being who does ordinary things and struggles with life, just like everyone else? Can I still hold onto what I believe of this place: that anything is possible and that all dreams are within reach?

My desk, pleading for some tidying.

I have finally decided, though, to remove my mask, just for one post, and show myself for everything that I am. A brief reality check - then back to dreaming! I need to know where I am starting so that I know which path to take next, right?

And so, my Loves. Here I go.. My name is Ingrid - really, it's my middle name, but I like it ever-so-much better than my first. I am twenty one years old. After a year of college, then a year of wandering through Europe, I am once again living at home in a teensy-tiny town on the eastern coast of the United States. This situation frustrates me beyond words, and I desperately long for the freedom of my own space.

I am so very passionate about colour, about art, about expression and love and travelling and people and exploration. I adore animals and I treasure nature's beauty. My favourite season is Spring - it is the season of hope. I love skipping, laughing, twirling, creating, and singing; friends and the ocean and birds and elephants and culture and small, quiet moments of love between strangers (a wink, a smile, a kindess).

I am extremely messy. My desk is in the picture above - covered with Things and Papers! Ideas come and go quickly though my mind, and my desire to start new projects heavily outweighs my desire to finish them.

I have been dealing with depression for many, many years and am very proud of myself for being where I am today in that journey. (My, what a scary thing it is, announcing that to the world!) My boyfriend of nearly two years lives in Germany - a difficult situation, to be sure, but I love him dearly and, somehow, we make it work.

I long to travel the world and meet the people in it, taking part in the beauty that is humanity and the love that resides there. I am not interested in making a fortune in my lifetime, but rather gathering a vast wealth of experience that, in the end, brings happy tears to my eyes and fills an overflowing heart.

Is that enough, friends? Have you made it this far? I suppose I will end here, and my heart will tell me over the next few days if there is anything else that I would like share with you on this subject. Thank you for reading; this has been exactly what I needed. One's heart never lies! And until I know about Part Two, I will wear the cape of a princess, a goddess, an artist, or whatever else I choose to be!

Love to you all,


The Drifter and the Gypsy said...

Great post! It's so nice to learn more about the blogger behind the blog! And I find myself relating to some of the things you wrote as well ;)

Happy late 6 month blogging anniversary!


Brandi said...

I'm so glad you wrote this post.
(1) I love your name. It's awesome.
(2) I know how frustrating it can be when you long to decorate a place of your own but can't. Sometimes I think I would need a single room that I could constantly redecorate and recreate just to get out all of my creative energies.
(3) There's a lot that you wrote that I can really connect to.
I love what you do and will be here while you continue to do it -- Happy 6 month anniversary!

Ingrid said...

thank you both so very much! you've brought a smile to my face and happiness to my heart.. i love both of your own corners of the internet so much and am thrilled to be blogging next to you! <3

Steffi said...


I can relate to many things in your post and it is so good to hear your truth!

Happy anniversary!

erica said...

i've not been myself recently, and because of that i've been falling behind reading your blog, among others. i started catching up today when i woke up and i realized that i feel almost normal again. i'm glad this is the first entry i read. you're such a beautiful person, ingrid, and it's been great getting to know you. and today, it made me happy to get to know you even better. you are a complete inspiration.

i've been in a slump as of late and i've not been doing any crafts or any art or basically anything that uses my creative side. i was hoping you could provide me with some suggestions of something fun. something i can craft out of the limited supplies i have, something i could draw that is out of the ordinary-- something. i have faith in you to spark my fire again.

you know where to reach me. :)

Sparfy said...

all serious daring starts from within... :-)

Ingrid said...

thank you! it's so nice to know that i have this band of friends and supporters whom i admire and whose blogs i admire so much!

i somehow can't comment on your blog, and will have to settle for a response here. i love what you said ~ and i believe it completely! what an inspirational, terrifying, beautiful thought. the hard part is working up the courage to letting that daring out into the world!

Chas said...

What a beautiful soul you have. Thank you for sharing!


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